I'm so tired. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm sick of being strong. I'm so depressed and being depressed just makes me more depressed. If that makes any sense. Probably not. "we're all mad here" I can feel the beauty around me but i don't want to look. I don't feel like looking. I'm spinning in circles and all i want to do is close my eyes and curl into a little ball. I am ashamed to cross the street, i look down, look away, i don't want to meet the eyes of the strangers i feel unworthy to be around. Everyone is so interesting i feel lacking in comparison. being unsocial is making me more and more unsocial and is making human contact har